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Haiz. Today is the worst day in my life. Yes.no doubt about it. i wish i died seriously. this world is making me sick...i dont know what is wrong. but i guess the problem is me.

First thing in the morning played "pass the ball" during pharmacotherapy. music stops, person with the ball will kenna Patient or PT. heng heng until me. wth. and i was the PT. and sk was the patient. i guess the whole class doesnt know what i was talking about. because i dun understand myself too. nvm. next TEP. Mr Kelvin says tep test 1 pupil got 0. i am 1000000% sure its me. anyway my test, i got a fantabulas F lah. huiyan got full marks. she is smart. i am dumb. all the while maybe i have been trying to deny that i am dumb. maybe i should just admit that i am stupid and get a life and stop trying to act smart. im totally nuts. maybe i should switch profession. because i dun think i am good at this. maybe quit school is the only choice for me. Mr Kelvin says if we are not sure that the preparation wont kill anyone, we should change course. but too late la. so maybe i can quit school and stop wasting money and resources. i think im not suitable to be in this line. cos i might have killed millions of people. fine. next thing. i broke a stirring rod. yes the 2nd apparatus in my life. was stirring when i accidently hit it and it flew out of the beaker and piang on the floor. well done. i deserve a slap. should have broken my head instead of the stirring rod. then after the experiment we have to clean like crazy. yes because both prep contains white soft paraffin. and its damm freaking irritating one. i think white soft paraffin is taboo to my life. whatever. so we ha to wash like siao. but we dun seem to finish washing the beakers and bottles. because somehow they just keep increasing. perhaps we washed a thousand pieces that does not belong to us. in the end only left me june and dionis down there keep washing like crazy. with hot water somemore. and the rest of people are almost all gone. and seriously i have to scrub the stupid bottles containing HOT water with my bare hands. so after the expt was like red and hot. and super crumpled like tau pok. really. and i think my nail polishes almost came off. not that i am try to exagerate. but the bottles are damm difficult to clean. the water and soap and tissues wasted is far more expensive than the bottles i think. i dunno. i hate my life. i hate myself. i hate everything. i hate this world. maybe 死了算了...累人累己...

26 Dec 08



Today is World Boxing day. a day after christmas. thanks to june for reminding. haha. went to school for med chem project. actually wanted to do med micro. but med chem's deadline is drawing near. was feeling super tired and sleepy cos ate medicine that cause drowiness. OMG. and i have about a trilion things undone. wth. hmmm after that went to orchard with dionis. suddenly everywhere like soooo many people. walk liao also sian. wanted to buy a pen a kinokuniya and the queue is like 500000 yards lor. wth so din buy. sian la. then walk walk. after that went to plaza sing to eat. also damm lots of people. LOL. then walked around also. bought cloth at spotlight and decided to make my own pencil case. boliao. wanted to buy zip but $5 wor, wan to cheat my money. LOL. after that went home. saw Justin from Learning Media on mrt. LOL. tired like siao. but have to put pictures into the medchem thing. so in the end slept late. next day still had to go school!


27 Dec 08
No work. but gotta go back school for medchem. thank God we left abit. im like din contribute much wor. omg. gonna get 0 for peer review. jk. and printscreen is the in thing now. haha. took super long time to print the booklet. then after that went to sumo for lunch with peifang and siauhui. bought zip at $1.20 only. and spotlight wan to cheat me $5 haha. jk. after that went amk hub to buy pf's organiser. LOL. after that went home to sleep like siao. soooper tired. reach home at 4 plus and slept till 8.30. OMG. haha then did factcards for medmicro cos gonna send to pf asap haha. then went to buy dinner. LOL. after dinner went to pack my stuff cos my house is in a mess. LOL. then did medchem report. wanted to do PMT as well but taboleh tahan le lah. so slept at 3am. LOL.

28 Dec 08
Didnt feel like waking up AT ALL. but still woke up. went over to grandma house to DIY my pencil case. erm but my grandma did most of the work la. and she is a genius wor. i think its nice like siao! =) thanks loads. hmm after that went cwp with mum and sis and aunts and cousins. to buy shoes and stuffs to prepare for school reopen. NOT ME. my cousins. lol. wanted to buy a pair of nike shoes. but no size!!! too big. LOL. sadded but left down my contact so they can check other branches and contact me. hopefully have! bought new laptop bag. very nice. its pink with my fave character. not hello kitty. if hello kitty i will be high like siao. just kidding. its the cat by the name of Marie. SO CUTE. lol. after that met janice. she gave me my birthday present. very touched wor. cos she personally came to my house there and pass to me. 这种朋友...没得讲!! yah. i like it very much, got hello kitty file. this is the only hello kitty present i received this birthday. haha. thanks girl! (:

29 Dec 08
WOO! First day of school wor! dun feel like waking up so i snoozed till i was late for medchem for 7mins. LOL. then after that we have PMT e-quiz using HeuCampus. lame lah. very funny. whole class was like mass conferencing with Mr Kelvin. and its sooper funny one and everyone is laughing like siao. cos Mr Kelvin can see us facebooking etc etc. LOL. funny lah. then after that went to lunch. after that went to library to do PMT report. peiqi was compiling the work. then i played fb for a while and we were all screaming like siao. too excited liao. and the librarian cams and scold us. so mean. i think librarians are boliao. Government should first retrench librarians. JUST KIDDING. lol. then peiqi told us about her dropping a coin and 1 aunty go pick up etc etc etc. we all was laughing till pasir ris can hear. super funny. 1st day of school so high. siao one. LOL. then after that went home. dionis laughed very loudly and got 1 guy turned around and look at her. i think she nearly killed him. OMG.

Todays' christmas!...how i spent 2008 christmas...hrmmm...woke up at almost 1 pm... very tired leh.... i think im getting too lazy nowadays. lol. sick wad. chey. and my medicine tastes like vanilla ice cream. NICE LEH. ok after that straight away eat lunch. lol. after that i went to buy my new LG ice cream HP. lol. very nice wor. its pink. hehe. its a birthday cum christmas present. from ME! yes. myself. from me to me. =)) hrmm then after that went to vivo city (yes again) cos my sis (yes she again) wanted to buy her bagpack. but in the end go there no more liao. oops omg. bought alot of tee-shirts. erm 4 only la. 2 black and 2 white. from 37 degrees and ip zone. nice wor. haha. i must stop trying to spend money. LOL. recession wor, i am eating grass soon. LOL. wahahahahahaha. anyway mummy buy for me one lah. LOL.





ok my 2008 christmas resolution is stop buying things and go on a diet. yes i think im getting fatter. LIKE A PIG. omg.


oh ya and im downloading games to my nds like siao. i mustnt neglect my pinkie right?
LOL.

nice wor.i am eating grass for the rest of the month. lol grrr.

PS. Interstitials on websites are soooper annoying wor!

my greatest fear has come. 我最害怕的事情已经发生了. and now im trying my best to 补救. hopefully things will turn out fine. hais.

Just came back from malaysia, and common tests and exam ended... now left with about a trillion things to do. about a mambozillion things to blog about. LOL. ok lets starts, whew.

29 Nov 08

Need to work. sian diao. ahah. after that went out with my sec sch cliques. to celebrate yixin's birthday... went to northpoint to makan. then walk walk... had a great time...

30 Nov 08

Went to Vivocity with mum and sis cos sis need to change her Viewty charger. hrmmm shop around and bought things.

December has come! i just so love Decembers!

1 Dec 08

Study LOR

2 Dec 08

My cousin's birthday. Schoooool as usual...

3 Dec 08

PMT presentation today. was ok lah. then practised pharmacotherapy like siao cos test coming. LOL. playing with ms yong and ms ong's inhaler, expired insulin and needles, glucose meters etc etc. haha. after that Got captain's ball. we got kicked out after 1st round. eh semi-finals wor. not bad liao hor. was super high. everyone cheering for everyone. haha.

4 Dec 08

WOOT! Its my birthday today! Happy birthday to me! LOL. im the last person in PS0701 to turn 18. haha. birthday also need to go school! no marketing in the morning. so we practised pty in the morning. huiyan and dionis bought me a super cute teddy i like and made me a card. very nice wor. also got a bag. very cute. also got me a slice of cake. my favourite strawberry cake! yum yum ! thanks pals! after that got medmicro lect. my PS0701 peeps sang me a birthday song after the lecture! hahas. thanks people. after that got medchem pract. kept laughing. dunno why. Subra thought i was siao. LOL. after that went to amk hub with sis. then ate at Fish & Co. my fave!. dad did not join. he bought me a purple cake. very pretty. fave color. mum ordered hello kitty cake for me. dad dunno she bought le so buy again. so i got 2 cakes. nvm i LOVE CAKES! had a fun birthday. thanks to everyone who wished me today! =))

5 Dec 08

Happy birthday to mag! Pharmacotherapy test today. nervous like siao one la. cos we have to do patient counselling. argh. HP was kenna quarantined. cos 02 will be having test. and later got briefing about IAP/FYP. maybe lecturers scared we slipped away so decided to confiscate our hp. LOL. was super handicapped without my phone. grrr. pty was ok. was not as bad as i had expected. kenna Mr Kelvin. kept making me laugh. but overall was ok. after that went to library to mug to jap. met Jovan to ask him abt jap. grr jap can so be driving me nuts. haha anyway must thank him wor. and my frens are like urmmm. whatever. hahah. then after that we talked about HK stars. i kept interuppting with Sun Yan Zi and Ping Guan etc and i think pf and hy nearly killed me. lol. yes, and i have to think hard what i really wan to do for attachment.

6 Dec 08

Got jap today. was asking sensei about a million questions. hahas. i badly wan to pass my jap!!!

7 Dec 08

JLPT today! argh.was freaking nervous. met siauhui, irene, shan shan and petrina at amk interchange. shiwei didnt join us. last night studied till 5am. dont drink coffee but drank a whole cup of mocha because of jap. but still not very confident of passing. morning still keep feeling wan to vomit. LOL. tooo nervous wor. lol. hmm the test is not difficult but to me is OMG. hais. i just wish i can pass. grrrr. but i think im deep shit for that paper. jovan's abalone no hope lahs. grrrr. whatever. i'll let nature take its course. i have to passsss!!! hais although jap has ended. i somehow feel very sad. deep down my heart, i know why. why must all good things come to an end. i dread the feeling of endings because each time this happens i feel lost. whatever. then after that reach home slept till 10 plus then study for common test. argh.

8 Dec 08

Today no school cos public holiday today. Hari Raya. and Mr Kelvin's birthday. so spent the day at home mugging. haha. hopefully i did. hais..

9 Dec 08

Test: Medical Microbiology
Was ok lah. hopefully can get an A or wad. LOL. fingers-crossed. wanted to buy jacket at shoppin arcade but no new piece le. what the. bought new HP socks. LOL.

10 Dec 08

Test: Marketing for Life Sciences 2, Pharmacy Practice 2
Marketing was like omg no comments.
Pharm pract was like what the?!?! OMG
Super screwed up these 2 papers today, urgh.

11 Dec 08

Test: Pharmaceutical Manufacturing Technology
Hrmm this paper hopefully was also ok. we gave Mr Kelvin a card for his birthday. choosen by yours truly. a very cute card. haha. hope he likes it. LOL.

12 Dec o8

Test: Medicinal Chemistry
This paper was not as bad as i had expected. ok la. hope can do well. yeah common tests over liao. can play. like real ah. still have to reports and projects. haha. but finally can take a break! after that went to National Museum with some peeps from class as NE activity. very sua ku. never go museum before. LOL. after that met weishan, yixin, mag, suhui, szehuey, to celebrate me and mag's belated birthday. haha. ate at cineleisure's hongkong cafe. yum yum. yixin gave me a present and a lovely keychain. after that went to shop around. they all insists on paying for my purchases. haha in the bought for me a necklace. and a notepad. haha. thanks guys. haha had a great time taking loads of pictures etc. bought a mini christmas hat. had loads of fun. in the end reached home at around 12am. LOL. go home still have to pack my bag cos nect day im going malaysia. LOL. Super super super tired. morning supposed to meet janice but she overslept. so met huimin. she gave me a birthday card. thank loads big jie jie!

13 Dec 08

in KL

14 Dec 08

in KL

15 Dec 08

in KL

16 Dec 08

in KL & Genting

17 Dec 08

in Genting

18 Dec 08

in Genting

19 Dec 08

in Genting. HOME SWEET HOME. i miss my laptop. (: came back from malaysia and became sick. throughout the trip was sick like siao. but that did not spoil my mood. still played like siao. and bought loads of things. (: and i ate ice cream everyday. yet literally everyday. nice leh. yum yum. and addicted to pokey and loacker. yum yum. lol.

20 Dec 08

packed my holiday loots. Went to godma house. ate at pastamania with uncle and cousins.

21 Dec 08

went yishun with mummy to perm her hair. then went cwp to shop for christmas pressies. bought alot of things! love xmas!

22 Dec 08

Still sick. did not feel like getting up from bed. sian. then researched for medchem. at night wrapped mummy's pressies for her. ok gtg post my xmas cards. sayonara. (:



PS. i promise i will post some pictures another time =s

Just gonna post some randoms. was feeling very emo. will post everything i have done over the past week after my common test. if i can remember.
emo emo emo. haiz. thanks for making my life miserable.
there are things in life that sometimes i dun really understand. why must God give us something, only to take them away at the end of the day. the feeling is far worse that not having it in the first place. haiz. and why must good things come to an end? everything would be over soon. and im quite upset about it. HAIZ. some things are damm hard to forget. and i dun think i will ever will be able to. they will only remain as a thorn in my heart. constantly reminding me that everything is over and wont go back to what they used to be before. HAIZ. sometimes i really like to 逃避

haiz. suddenly remembered a quote from a magazine.

The Cotton Candy Crush
Some crushes are like cotton candy-they look yummy and totally tempting, but when you actually get a taste, there's not much there.
Suddenly, you're left with disappointment and no crush.
Sometimes a crush should stay a crush and simply be a delicious daydream.
That way, you'll always have someone sweet to think about as you drift off to sleep...

HAIZ. to him, if you ever happen to see this post. always remember how much i love you. WHATEVER.

Sweet things wont always remain sweet
- The poet

因为就当我知道自己有可能快要永远失去你的时候， 我才知道原来你已经成为我生命中很重要的部分了...

sknaht.elbaresim efil ym gnikam si eh esuaceb gip eht etah i

ok gotta go japping liao. tmr got exam. im gonna sleep at 5 am. GRR. sayonara

This week's Horoscope for Sagittarius

For the Week of Dec 1st, 2008 -- Rest up on Friday while the Moon in your 4th House of Roots keeps you close to the nest. A little cuddling with a comfortable person is more likely than a blazing romance then. On Saturday night, though, the Moon fires into your dramatic 5th House of Romance to put you in the spotlight and bring more pleasure into your life.


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wahaha. today everyone in PS0701 is at least 18. wahahaha. before that i was the only one non-18 in the class wor. LOL.

Happy Birthday To Me ! (:

just gg to blog about today's stuff...hais..sad sia...i hate the feeling of waiting...and the feeling of promises broken...

WAITING

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haiz. WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST. =*(