well done. i am feeling miserable again. i told myself i wont cry. i tried to hold back. but i failed again. and i can only blame myself because i saw something i shouldnt see. stupid idiot go click for wad. dumbass. and i am pissed off because i care. i care because i _____ whatever lah. say whatever you want. say that i am throwing another tantrum, like you always did. say i am petty like u always did. and i don't even care if ur love had rekindled. because it is only me that is being such a fool here. dumb ass. i am not doing to talk to you anymore. tmd.


how come you don't care like you used to? its ok. i understand, and i have nothing to say.

i love you loads baby! friends forever! :))

i'm avoiding, avoiding and avoiding.


and i've got a million things to say to you but words just cant escape my mouth.....

i'll do anything to make time stop and not wake up and live in my dreams forever.

i am not going to care about you anymore, thats me, but im not sure about my heart...





just like how u don't care about me...


you did, now you don't. and thank you.

你变了
you weren't what you used to be :(

i am sick and tired of crying and waiting for you.


I.H.A.T.E.Y.O.U


when hate=love

爱我好吗? - 卓文萱

虽然收敛了许多的情感
还是泄露了我的不安
于是你开始冷淡
我也开始问自己该怎么办

如果你知道我的遗憾
千万不要再不以为然
我的生活已经混乱
到处漂流却始终靠不了岸

这是我最后
最美最真
最心碎的留言
oh 爱我好吗
我愿意让伤心再来一遍
只要你留一个位置给我
哪怕是在你心中
最容易被忽略的角落



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杨丞琳-只想爱你

我终于还是说了一句我爱你
还记得那个微凉夜里天空正飘着小雨
心跳的声音
像舞动奇迹

你看着我说千万不要爱上你
因为你只会让我伤心
别傻了快点喊停
你那么冷静
忽远又忽近

我知道我对你来说也许太年轻
我想我猜我问我终于了解
原来为爱流的眼泪也是种甜蜜滋味
只想爱你
当我和你走在一起就已经决定
不看不听不问也不会放弃
是你让我了解自己可以为爱那么坚定
只想爱你
好想每天睁开眼睛就能看到你
我知道我偶尔有一点任性
不管你做任何决定究竟爱我还是逃避
sorry我还是不会放弃爱你
sorry我还是不会放弃
我还是不会放弃爱你




i wonder if these songs are written for me... ):

你突然这样做, i really dunno how to react. one moment i was feeling super hellish. emo like can. one moment i felt the sweetness that came from you. can u stop doing this to me? 又冷又热，忽远又忽近...im tired. real tired. 我的心很乱...

i dunno what to do...i tried not to think about it...but my mind kept playing tricks on me...ip is quite far from sgh and sgh is far from mrt station......sometimes on my way to work, i would suddenly stop dead in my tracks and think of the happy moments we shared together and the hellish situation currentlu, and feel sad. thats why my mind cant be left idle, if not i might commit suicide. just kidding. actually im quite glad that work keeps me occupied. ip is super busy. have you seen someone who is as sick as a dunno-what dash in and out of the prescription area packing meds, scanning pres and issuing queue numbers, calling nurses, doing stats, do returns, send meds up to wards, do DIS, answering calls. BLAH. yes thats yours truly. damm shagged. but better than thinking of those idiot stuff. tmd.

speaking of being sick. i feel super super terrible. but no one seems to bother about me
:(
personally i think its ok. because im used to it.

last few days had bad sorethroat, now my nose is like a running tap. but sometimes it gets blocked. (just like my heart, cant seem to make up its mind) whatever. (currently, I CANT BREATHE) so im gasping like a fish. and i kept sneezing at work today. i rubbed my nose till its red. lol. and i feel so bad for not wearing a mask (we wear mask to protect OTHERS, not ourselves) and ip is damm cold...grrrrr...and the stupid panadol cold doesnt seem to work. grrrrr. PLUS. the flu is making me headache and nausea as well. siao. and i had a few episodes of nearly-black-out-ing today. :(

now i totally understand that one really needs SOMEONE to care for you when u are sick. i need my TLC ): (esp when the meds arent working) where is my TLC when i needed it most? WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST?



D:


i need patient controlled morphine drip

因为我在忍痛








if only someone would _______________
swg yas tsuj dna em llac
i think i dun even need meds and FLY ):

SORRY (in advance)

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY =))