I am in love with numbers. It just makes things easier.
First of all. Today is my 1-year anniversary in SGH. (excluding attachment). I have dedicated 1 year of my youth to SGH Pharmily. (thanks and now what do i get?!?!?!) i ought to be promoted. jk. lols. The pharmacy is like my second home. (sometimes) I miss doing night.
OK next.There are too much things to do. I check my email as often as i can. Like refresh every 2 minutes. SGH internet hates my ipod. I cant check tweets, i cant check email blah. FML. Someone please resolve this soon before i go nuts. Oh and i check my hp as often as i can. As long as i am not in lab. lol. I have too many things to buy too! I need to save up for Korea trip because i am gonna spend all my entire savings on suju stuff probably. Just came back from KL concert. I am seriously considering going for the Vietnam one. Was telling Amanda unni that i am going. She said 'no! i dont want u to go, i want you to be save, i care for you' (with the Japan quake and such, everywhere is dangerous..) AH. i was so touched. i miss my unnis alot alot alot. I told her. but then my boyfriends would be in danger too. she said, ' then you wanna die with them?' i said ya =) haha.
Next! I discovered something that can cheer me up whenever i feel depressed. I look at my HP =) OK recently my life is happening because other than Super, its Junior =) I promise to love them forever. Because they are my everything ^^
Anyways. I broke Guinness World Record yesterday. My first ever AM prep. I came out at 2+pm. GREAT. My AM prep nearly clashed with PM prep. How funnyily ridiculous can this be. Yanru even came in to help me. I dunno how guilty i feel. They told me that for AM prep, i have to be wary of the time. I know. But i got no potential. Maybe front from the beginning, i thought too highly of myself. Maybe i am still better off be doing cartfills and such.
Went to retail today to run some errands. Went to IP to run some errands. Surprisingly i smiled alot today. 1) To patients, and 2) To the IP people i miss alot. Retail Amanda said i slimmed down. AH why is everyone telling me that. I still feel fat fat fat! Maybe i just looked haggard. I should think of a way to stop eating.
Next up. e-Awards. Super junior didnt win. SAD LIKE OMG. Thats because i didnt vote. OOPS. i am real sorry. i really wanted to but i really am too busy (or claiming to be). Big Bang won. SHINee SJ and Bigbang were running close (according to news) ahhh. thats good. at least there wasnt xxxx -.-
Okay last but not least (i gave up waiting for my hair to dry stupid). I hope you can cheer up and be happier. I just wanted to say that no matter what i do, i just wanted to make you feel better and happier. I know i failed. But i will keep trying. Because either way, it hurts.
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Monday, March 21, 2011
Having lunch with bodoh hazirah now at Duke. WAKAKAKA.
BITCHING is great. AND most importantly, i happen to see this.
OKAY Teukie is handsome TO THE MAX. I will remember teuk's face when i go into the lab later. SIAN.
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Sunday, March 20, 2011
I'm blogging from Kualar Lumpur now!! This is fan service!
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Thursday, March 17, 2011
As i finished my last post, i skimmed through my blog, and then went to baby's to read hers. and i saw her post on the dongsengs. Yeah. Dongsengs are so troublesome because apparently i sprinted to orchard from suntec to get dongseng's shirt and baby sprinted from orchard to suntec to get thumbdrive for her dongseng. haha. yeah. we could do this in Seoul and save alot of time.
And amidst this depressive moment, i managed to crack a smile at a comment ;baby hated JH ttm. hahahaha! this is hilarious!! i dunno why lah.
ok i will try to love him for ur sake baby. (omg) =.= Please love Suju too. (and be an ELF) =)
For your sake, i'll do this just for you.
이준호 사랑해요 !!!!!
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I need to find time to blog. Life is happening recently. Back at IP. Cartfill is so much fun though i get stress cos i check super slowly. My last cartfill was the Ward 42 era, so forgive me. =.='' It feels good to be back though. I miss everyone. Stayed back with hazirah today to help her with the med safety deco. Then went up with jielin jiejie to the ward for care plan. I've got nothing better to do seriously. Today's mood was surprisingly okay. Probably because i was wearing my wonnie hoodie from Korea =) It was still super cold though. Nickname of the day given by yushan and kuna is little red riding hood. haha! they are irritating but fun to work with. I sound like im giving my farewell speech. Well, i think i should start practicing. =( Okay. and my mood gets to be spoiled by some random apparent stuff. Its kinda obvious because when the question popped up. I go all quiet, and thinking and blank. Whatever lah. It was my stupidity and my fault in the first place. KPO. Well God knows whats best for me.....
Saturday met up with baby. Surprisingly x 10000, she want to go IT fair. Usually i get nagged when i say i wanna go IT fair. haha! Went to orchard for dinner. Had fun talking about men. and such. Psychotherapy is great. No chance to get drunk though. I've been spending too much money recently. I need to save up. (For Korea and 5th Jib). Baby meet up soon. School, FIGHTING!
Anyway, last week covered haem for 2 days. Because i was saboh-ed by Yanru -.- First of all, i would like to apologise to everyone in haem. because i seriously think i am more of a trouble than help. My prep is BLOODY slow and people have to stay back because of me. I cant do anything right. I am clumsy. I always cause MASSIVE spillage. I dont do things the right way. I feel stupid. But sometimes, i wonder, is being dumb my fault. Last but not least, I was very sad. Well again, Serves me right.
Another thing, Dear You, sometimes u are the reason why i am so skeptical about this issue. I dont want this friendship to get worse. I was asking baby what are her views of being sian diao by someone. I dunno. The feeling is scary. Its me. I am such a jerk. I get annoyed over every single thing. But sometimes u have no idea u are annoying as well. Well, tolerance has its limit.
Life is short. I know we should treasure life. But i seriously think life sucks to the max. I might get struck by lightning for saying that because, look, since the Japan earthquake, the Japanese people doesnt even get a choice or a chance to live. But i seriously think if i should give up my life in exchange for those victims' which are much more precious. I really hope God will bless them and tide them through this ordeal.
As I am typing this, alot of things are running through my mind. I dunno i don care and i don bother. Saw bro yesterday morning. He thought i was at haem. There are so much things i wanna tell him. But i don think i will ever do that lah. Its okay.
Last but not least, i hope teukie or wonnie will tweet me. Perhaps just a 'FIGHTING' might make me change my mind. I think my mood can go up to 1 trillion. I will wait.
I am so running away from everything. I dont have the mood or strength to do anything. I am so worried. =( God Save Me.
My eyes were wet listening and watching this. 오빠 사랑해
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Tuesday, March 8, 2011
I hope everything will turn out fine..
Ruiyi the elf in me FIGHTING!
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I'm tired. That scary feeling is back. I'm so tired that I wanna tear whenever i tell people I'm tired. I want to just cry. Depression is setting in again. No one ever ever ever understands me. Can things just work out?? Please?
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Sunday, March 6, 2011
FMlL. Because of some 바보, I have to wake up at 6am tomorrow. FML ttm
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Wednesday, March 2, 2011
I think people who criticise and make fun of idols or whatever just SUCKS ttm and should just drop dead. Especially when u stepped on my tail. And seriously i only want them to myself.. and let me tell you, i dont like it!
Ok, bipolar attack again.
Anyways, ruiyinie prepared 8 preps today and ended at 5.30pm. can i take this as an improvement? Of course i suck at preparing chemo. and i seriously think being a singer is easier than preparing chemo.
Ah. Lisa unni bought lots of stuff for me. i am so happy. it was very heavy but she still bought it back for me. could never be thankful enough. =) it was heavy, my arm is red, but worth it =) saranghae ^^
Ahhhh i miss being at IP. i miss my unni-s and people. now when i go back, i dont feel welcomed anymore =((
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안녕하세요
Name: Rui Yi ^^ Birthdate:4 Dec 1990
I love SUPER JUNIOR. I wish i can become best friends with them -.- I hope to migrate to Korea one day. I like SHINee too! I love watching Korean variety shows and laugh to myself. I want to be rich. I want to learn Hangul. I have a million wish waiting for them to come true. 理想 and 梦想 - I have to choose one. I wish I'll fufil both. FIGHTING!
Hope u enjoy my blog =) 감사합니다
