Today: 29-09-2009 (pretty cool date, but it broke my heart)


To: You-Know-Who-You-Are

First and foremost, I'm sorry...real sorry because this is going to be another emo post. i promise the next one would be a happy one. or rather a normal one...

Emo-ness started from morning. it doesnt mean i am not when i dont show it. its just because i cant. and sometimes, i forget, which is a good thing. how come the awful truth never fails to hurt? i dunno why. but right from the start, it was just wishful thinking on my part. and i dunno what made me that silly. i really DON'T KNOW.

today jq told me he changed the mice bedding and such. a random thought came into my mind...i suddenly feel like the mice in the lab. why do u have to treat me this good when eventually my fate is DEATH? i mean why gave me hope only to shatter them in less than 1 sec? why bother to treat me well when u were meant to kill me in the first place, right from the beginning? it HURTS MORE THIS WAY.

today im soooo dumb that i bumped my thumb while washing my hands and it bled like crazy. the moment i saw the blood ooze out, i sooo wish that someone would come and kiss my pain away..and small plaster would be able to make my world go wild. unfortunately, it did not happen. the cuts in my hands are deep, but the ones in my heart are deeper...

i cant possibly act emo while at home. i have to pretend nothing has happpened. unfortunately, i dun even know what has happened. i guessed i reached my saturation point because tears started rolling the moment i stepped into the bathroom. it was where no one can hear or see me. it was the moment that i could no longer take it, and i just broke down and cried. involuntarily. i dunno how long i've cried in the shower, but i just cant stop. the tears just cant stop flowing. i think i've hold on for too long.....................................................................................................................

sometimes, it hurts so much i wish i wont wake up from my sleep the next day so that i don have to face all these...real tired....and its super emotionally taking a toll on me...one day i'll sure snap...and the whole world forgets about me....the end...





Winter rainbows are very faint, and by the time you notice them they have almost disappeared.
The winter rainbow disappeared as I pointed to it. The only thing left was the beautiful image of the fragile winter rainbow.
Often love and dreams, like winter rainbows, hopelessly disappear just as you feel that you have found them.
Perhaps that way they are more precious, and remain as a beautiful memory.



Horoscope
You are feeling like a bird in springtime lately, Sagittarius, and nothing will get you down today. If you are single, there is a certain person that has just been floating your boat, and today your imagination will take over and your heart will pound at the mere sight of them. Be careful about what that imagination is doing to you, as you don't want to delude yourself into waiting for someone that simply isn't worth it. That doesn't mean you can't enjoy the ride in the meantime, though. Attached? It feels like love at first sight all over again, doesn't it? Enjoy it. You don't get many days like today.