你突然这样做, i really dunno how to react. one moment i was feeling super hellish. emo like can. one moment i felt the sweetness that came from you. can u stop doing this to me? 又冷又热，忽远又忽近...im tired. real tired. 我的心很乱...

i dunno what to do...i tried not to think about it...but my mind kept playing tricks on me...ip is quite far from sgh and sgh is far from mrt station......sometimes on my way to work, i would suddenly stop dead in my tracks and think of the happy moments we shared together and the hellish situation currentlu, and feel sad. thats why my mind cant be left idle, if not i might commit suicide. just kidding. actually im quite glad that work keeps me occupied. ip is super busy. have you seen someone who is as sick as a dunno-what dash in and out of the prescription area packing meds, scanning pres and issuing queue numbers, calling nurses, doing stats, do returns, send meds up to wards, do DIS, answering calls. BLAH. yes thats yours truly. damm shagged. but better than thinking of those idiot stuff. tmd.

speaking of being sick. i feel super super terrible. but no one seems to bother about me
:(
personally i think its ok. because im used to it.

last few days had bad sorethroat, now my nose is like a running tap. but sometimes it gets blocked. (just like my heart, cant seem to make up its mind) whatever. (currently, I CANT BREATHE) so im gasping like a fish. and i kept sneezing at work today. i rubbed my nose till its red. lol. and i feel so bad for not wearing a mask (we wear mask to protect OTHERS, not ourselves) and ip is damm cold...grrrrr...and the stupid panadol cold doesnt seem to work. grrrrr. PLUS. the flu is making me headache and nausea as well. siao. and i had a few episodes of nearly-black-out-ing today. :(

now i totally understand that one really needs SOMEONE to care for you when u are sick. i need my TLC ): (esp when the meds arent working) where is my TLC when i needed it most? WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST?



D:


i need patient controlled morphine drip

因为我在忍痛








if only someone would _______________
swg yas tsuj dna em llac
i think i dun even need meds and FLY ):