Sunday, January 31, 2010
as memories of you fade away...please take away the pain too...
i want to leave this place. it hurts toooo badly. i dont have a place in your heart. im not even worth remembering.
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Saturday, January 30, 2010
If all i want is to forget you, why is there so much pain, and why do i hurt so much...
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If all i want is to forget you, why is there so much pain, and why do i hurt so much...
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Right now, I'm stuck in a place full of memories. Wish i could get out of here asap. But next I'm also going to another place full of memories. Deep breaths, heavy heart, increased heartbeat. Symptoms of memories flooding the mind. Trying hard to suppress my feelings. Because it hurts. Because i cant rewind. Because i cant go back. Because its all in the past. Because its over. Because every step and every action reminds me of you. :(
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Being sick does make one hungry. Was feeling very hungry Ytd. So asked siauhui. She said cos I'm having a flu. And i wonder why. So looked up the internet. And it says that the while the body is fighting off the illness, more calories are burnt. WoO. Sounds logical. But why sometimes when I'm sick i don have appetite? lol. :)
By the way. I'm feeling miserable. I'm trying to suppress my feelings. Or have i really let go? Tell me why why why! 9 days.
:( :( :(
vulnerability
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Thursday, January 28, 2010
I am sooo sick! :( it started with a sore throat out of nowhere. Then i started coughing. And throat is always linked to nose so somehow the throat and and coughing has affected my nose as well and now my nose is both blocked and runny. How great. Grrr. And I've got a fever too. Lol. Went up to level 1 to sos when suddenly i was feeling very feverish. So asked my friend. She felt my forehead and went 'Wah so hot ah?!' Omg. And b1 is making things worse by being so freezing colddd... And i spent almost half a day shredding some 100 years ago papers. And the dust hates my nose and vice versa. Lol. So guilty. Have not been doing fyp. Because each time i reach home i don have e strength to do anything else. Lol. And fyi. I didnt see a doctor to get mc. Lol. Wait till tblth. Lol
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Monday, January 25, 2010
AGAIN?!!?!??!!
when its time, its really time. no use hanging on to something that isnt there. i am trying my very best to live life without you. give me some time. i don't understand why every single
little thing i do reminds me of you. things as simple as crossing the road, taking the train, picking up a pair of chopsticks. its harder to forget than remember. but i promise i'll try. because i am so tired. i've got so much things to tell you. but now, i dont even know how to talk to you. i dont have the courage at all. and i hate myself for running away from the truth. and thats because i am afraid of disappointment.
i am acting so much that i don't even know myself anymore. i'm so tired.
i dont even know if these are tears of fatigue of sadness.
take away the pain. sorry.
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Tuesday, January 19, 2010
A very very very Happyy Birthdayyyy to YJQ :)
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Sunday, January 3, 2010
Time: 16:56
Weather: Raining
Listening to: 雨爱
Mood: Sad, confused, angry
Very appropriate song. i like. i'm glad i calmed down. i miss jie jie. saw her comment on fb. and tears start to weld up again. i miss her very much. i dun wanna go work tmr. but i hope i'll be able to see her tmr...
i feel like going out into the rain. because i love water. and no one can see me crying. i remember i told weishan last week i love the beach, esp when im sad. because i love looking at the seawater. but now, no. because now i hate beaches. hate hate hate.
right now, i really really need someone to talk to. maybe not talk. i need someone to look me in the eyes, and know the answers and stories i have been trying to tell but cant. i need a shoulder to cry on. where were you when i needed you most?
u used to care about me, but not anymore. and i don't blame you for that, because i'm born fated to be lonely
Sagittarius - Jan. 3, 2010
It is time to stop thinking about all the problems involved in a certain situation, as this is not getting you anywhere at all. The astral alignment encourages you to take the plunge and simply go with the flow. If you are going out on a date for the first time this evening, then you will have a great time as long as you don't try and plan ahead.
its time i stop. i am trying very hard to. give me some time. but does it really work?
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i am the biggest IDIOT in the whole entire world. DON'T TALK TO ME. DON'T ASK ME WHY. SAY I'M UNREASONABLE FOR ALL I CARE. SAY I THINK TOO MUCH. WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I H.A.T.E Y.O.ULIES
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Friday, January 1, 2010
HAPPY NEW YEAR :)
Wishing everyone a blessed and fruitful 2010~!
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