Sagittarius - Feb. 22, 2010
An emotional issue with a family member could have you wanting to run away and hide, Sagittarius. Don't fight the urge. This may be just what you need in order to clear your mind regarding the problem and heal your wounded psyche before you face this person again. You might also receive some rather disconcerting revelations about yourself and old traumas that you’ve long since forgotten. Don't fight these either. Simply release them.

emotional issue with family members today? nope. but old traumas? probably yes. because those memories are haunting me. and hunting me down like crazy. and its driving me nuts. i might need some anti-depressant soon. or maybe i can try to get myself hooked on anxiolytics or sleeping pills.

if anyone would want me to describe my life now. i would say ITS A MESS. totally. i am tired. i need a break. i want to go mars. i am suffering from decision-making-phobia and reality-facing-phobia. i just want to run away from everything. EVERYTHING.

and its because everything isnt the same as before anymore. we arent the same anymore. and its hard to go back to how we used to be. and its my problem because i cant seem to forget and let go. my brain is controlling my brain and i cant seem to do anything about it. and why do i hold on when its making me so miserable. weird brain. the human mind is oh so fascinating!

money and love. which one would you choose? i might choose the latter. but since its beyond my reach, maybe i'll take the former. but all i wish for is ______. i dunno. but i SWEAR im gonna makes lots of money. maybe i'll try buying some love. WHATEVER LA.

perhaps its better to be friends than lovers. because friends are forever. a couple might not. but not necessary. i think this world is tooooo confusing. too complicated for a small fry like me.

and from now on, i am not going to think about the past bad experiences. maybe everything would be better. or am i thinking too much?

and one last thing. u are super super idiotically irritating. WTF?! i know u are superbly fantastically amazing SMART. but can u stoppppppppp annoying me? argh. maybe it is my fault for being ULTRA DUMB. but hey, who wants to be dumb? who wants to be looked down upon by others? be more sensitive alright? tmd