Wednesday, March 10, 2010
was watching tv and they were talking about dreams. can dreams really come true? what if all i ever dream of is to be able to love you? and perhaps
vice versa ... i am so tired. sometimes i am too tired to even cry...
i am not being unreasonable, i just need to know why. i am thinking very hard to find a way to analyze the situation such that it will hurt the least.
and when im thrown with a decision i cannot make, i just feel like dying so i dun have to think about it. and if i ever go ahead, thats because i just want to be ____ ___.
and making this decision is so hard that it is driving me crazy. maybe my new hobby is hiding in the toilet and cry.
AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!was not feeling well these few days. cooped up at home. and to avoid thinking too much, i slept too much i think my brain is fried. other than that, i watch tv. rmb there was a commercial, "if today was your last day, who would you say i love you to?'' i think if someone ever ask me that question. i will flip. because not only my last day. i want to let u know this everyday. but I CANNOT.
how come things keep on going wrong for me? and it just gets worse and worse. my problem is simple, yet too complicated.
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