Wednesday, October 20, 2010
I'm sleepy. 3 more long long hours to end work. My eyes are closing any minute. And i can't fall asleep cos the imrs keep coming. Rawrs.
Just now I scalded myself while making a drink. Not really scalded myself. But it's just that the hot water from the water dispenser splashed. And ouch. And then, I suddenly thought of someone. Which I begin to feel sad again. I thought of him. I remembered once on the phone, I told someone that I scalded my hand while drinking tea. I forgotten why he said because that was freaking long ago, but I think it was something nice? I know I will never hear that again. But seriously I really wish to go back to before. I know we were getting nowhere. But at the very least I feel blessed to be with you. Just a meal and staying by your side and looking at you is enough to keep me smiling even in my dreams.
One more thing, as I was looking through my phone, I saw those messages. Those comforting texts you used to send me. Those encouraging words, I'll never hear them again. Right now. I stared at my phone and kept waiting, but all I received were disappointments. My phone never beeped.
I already tried to let go. But I tried my best, maybe one last time, to go back to before. But I guess everything was just wishful thinking on my part.
It wasn't my fault. I was about to let go until u reappeared. Or rather I have not really let go. Deep down I have not forgotten at all. That why when u reappeared, the hurt was greater.
I don't want anything more, just someone to love and vice versa.
♥
