I need to find time to blog. Life is happening recently. Back at IP. Cartfill is so much fun though i get stress cos i check super slowly. My last cartfill was the Ward 42 era, so forgive me. =.='' It feels good to be back though. I miss everyone. Stayed back with hazirah today to help her with the med safety deco. Then went up with jielin jiejie to the ward for care plan. I've got nothing better to do seriously. Today's mood was surprisingly okay. Probably because i was wearing my wonnie hoodie from Korea =) It was still super cold though. Nickname of the day given by yushan and kuna is little red riding hood. haha! they are irritating but fun to work with. I sound like im giving my farewell speech. Well, i think i should start practicing. =( Okay. and my mood gets to be spoiled by some random apparent stuff. Its kinda obvious because when the question popped up. I go all quiet, and thinking and blank. Whatever lah. It was my stupidity and my fault in the first place. KPO. Well God knows whats best for me.....

Saturday met up with baby. Surprisingly x 10000, she want to go IT fair. Usually i get nagged when i say i wanna go IT fair. haha! Went to orchard for dinner. Had fun talking about men. and such. Psychotherapy is great. No chance to get drunk though. I've been spending too much money recently. I need to save up. (For Korea and 5th Jib). Baby meet up soon. School, FIGHTING!

Anyway, last week covered haem for 2 days. Because i was saboh-ed by Yanru -.- First of all, i would like to apologise to everyone in haem. because i seriously think i am more of a trouble than help. My prep is BLOODY slow and people have to stay back because of me. I cant do anything right. I am clumsy. I always cause MASSIVE spillage. I dont do things the right way. I feel stupid. But sometimes, i wonder, is being dumb my fault. Last but not least, I was very sad. Well again, Serves me right.

Another thing, Dear You, sometimes u are the reason why i am so skeptical about this issue. I dont want this friendship to get worse. I was asking baby what are her views of being sian diao by someone. I dunno. The feeling is scary. Its me. I am such a jerk. I get annoyed over every single thing. But sometimes u have no idea u are annoying as well. Well, tolerance has its limit.

Life is short. I know we should treasure life. But i seriously think life sucks to the max. I might get struck by lightning for saying that because, look, since the Japan earthquake, the Japanese people doesnt even get a choice or a chance to live. But i seriously think if i should give up my life in exchange for those victims' which are much more precious. I really hope God will bless them and tide them through this ordeal.

As I am typing this, alot of things are running through my mind. I dunno i don care and i don bother. Saw bro yesterday morning. He thought i was at haem. There are so much things i wanna tell him. But i don think i will ever do that lah. Its okay.

Last but not least, i hope teukie or wonnie will tweet me. Perhaps just a 'FIGHTING' might make me change my mind. I think my mood can go up to 1 trillion. I will wait.

I am so running away from everything. I dont have the mood or strength to do anything. I am so worried. =( God Save Me.

Anyeong